It’s so much easier if I could speak my mind,
But honesty, something I left far behind,
I’ve gotten lost in the rush to please their mind,
Reading every room, leaving my thoughts confined.
My feelings are buried so deep where they can’t be found,
Why, why am I still here？
and what’s the true point of this race？
I fake my way through day and night,
And tied to expectations fade in the light.
Work, smile, laugh – it’s all just a blur
What do I truly want？
Why am I here today？
Endless gray.
What am I fighting for？
Who am I deep inside？
Gone astray.
Dreams I held tight when I was young,
Passions I lost before my tongue.
What is it I truly want to find？
Where is the place that I’ve left behind？
I hide the damage day by day,
Pretending that everything’s okay.
But the price I paid along the way,
Is living a life that’s led astray.
I’m stuck in a place I don’t love or hate,
Unsure of any change, though it’s too late.
Another day, the same old ache.
What do I truly want？
Why am I here today？
Endless gray.
What am I fighting for？
Who am I deep inside？
Gone astray.