I’ve been trying tell myself
That I belong here
That I’m worth loving,
Something I don’t hear much
Or maybe I’ve ignored it
Placing more importance on my negative thoughts
Therapies a choice but I can’t really afford it
Operating still but thinking I should force quit (no)
Carrying all my baggage under covers
No one really asks so I don’t really bother
But yo, it ain’t their fault
It’s my own product
My own fault they don’t know because I don’t open up
But even then,
It’s been easier to let it be
I’m not good at speaking up
I’ll keep pretending
No need to ask about my thoughts
’cause all my words get stuck but
I can take these mental blocks,
And build them into a song
This one, the one before and after
Tweak it up a bit
Ownership with my mix and masters
Don’t have to cast a lie to ya’ll
This my honest voice I offer you
Don’t want to alter the truth
I’ll speak subjects I know
And that’s myself
Took a minute though
trying to figure me out but time will tell
I’ll keep it simple, no need for minor info
I’ll leave the major ones in though like these chords
and these notes but
Times moves so fast and I feel defeated
At the very least, should be grateful that I’m still breathing
Even though I’m Slow rolling
In normal motion
Times scrolling
Fast with these apps in my phone and
The fact is my will and devotions got a mirror held up to it
when seconds go pointless
And I know that the old clock stays ticking
Pointing in every direction
Yet I’m feeling aimless
I don’t know where I’ll be
Living life but can’t breathe
In the moment always counting dollars but I’m
Forgetting what really matters
Live more than just dreams ’cause
I don’t know where I’ll be
Believe I could be free
Hoping I could find me
I’m hoping I could find peace
I’m hoping i could find me
‘Cause I don’t know where I’ll be
But I’m hoping I could find…
I’m just a simple man
Just as simple as what’s good vs bad
Whats makes me happy or sad
And damn
I hate that simple rhyme
But they’re the factors in a question that’s more complex
than my simple mind because
My obsession to reach a point of happiness
Might be the exact reason why I won’t achieve it
Let it’s presence seep in,
I try to conceive it
Let me simmer in my joy without predicting my week
But then another year
Passed faster than I hoped for
Wishing bone snapped in hopes the hourglass won’t move forward
But alas it remained in the same motion
Realizations came with the facts I can’t do much to control it
Snapped me back to reality bout my own motives
What exactly am I doing
is it worth it？
I came into the new year as a new man again
But I don’t know, I feel like I’ve been moving against the sand
I don’t know where I’ll be
Living life but can’t breathe
In the moment always counting dollars but I’m
Forgetting what really matters
Live more than just dreams ’cause
I don’t know where I’ll be
Believe I could be free
Hoping I could find me
I’m hoping I could find peace
I’m hoping i could find me
‘Cause I don’t know where I’ll be
But I’m hoping I could find me
I’m hoping I could find peace
I’m hoping i could find me
‘Cause I don’t know where I’ll be
But I’m hoping I could find…