Red ghost glare
I see you in the window
No one behind me
No one in front
But it is there
It’s something inside me
I’ve felt it growing for years
And then it goes and then it comes
And when it comes
I worship my fear
My fear
God, tell me now
Where were you
When her throat was torn?
Baby needs love
My baby needs love
I’ve none to give
Spoke to Satan
Now I
I have no soul to give
Shut the fuck up with the music
I’m losing myself
Killer inside
You’re raping my dreams
The keeper of the heart
Lying dead at my feet
With your hand at my neck
On 11/6/18
I couldn’t breathe
I was too weak
God
Am I not what you want?
Empty like you made me
Behold the holy ghost peering in
I see it in the window
But it’s not what I need
What I need are my desires fulfilled
Down on your knees
You swallow my sorrows
Throwaway
Murderer
God
Remove me from this world
Cast me into the sea
With rocks at my feet
To the ocean floor I sink
Forgotten under waters we once swam
Enter the blue mist calm
There’s light behind my eyelids
As my lungs fill and swell
The darkness comes to brighten
As my soul begins to drift
The skies collapse in fifths
The celestial glow will dim
With a throat ripped from Heaven
The plead I made to you
You listened
And you answered
Now I’m broken
In dreams, I see her there
But her eyes miss mine
My voice she can not hear