Hey, sweetheart
I’d love to talk to you
All good, feeling fine
Clouds stay clear up in the nick of time
Miracles, she’d always find
Every year around Christmas time
She can make my whole mood change
Change so fast, I guess it could feel strange
Even if I couldn’t sleep
You hold me tight and you would sing to me
I love you
As long as I’m alive, I’ma love you
I like you always and forever
‘Cause mamma’s always gonna love you
My dear baby
My sweet baby
Nobody’s gonna hurt you
‘Cause mamma’s always gonna love you
Always just me and you
‘Til one day the boy grew and grew
Trouble I’d often brew
Doing the stuff that you ain’t want me to do
Late nights, I’d hide from you
Funny somehow you still always knew
Tiptoe, sneak in past two
Knock on your door and I would sing to you
I love you
As long as I’m alive, I’ma love you
I like you always and forever
‘Cause Gerald’s always gonna love you, uh
My dear mamma
My sweet mamma
Nobody’s gonna hurt you
‘Cause Gerald’s always gonna love you
Spent my last on you
So you ain’t have to worry when the rent was due
Finally my dreams came true
Signed a record deal like I said I’d do
Dream house, five bedrooms
You cried when I handed the keys to you
Hope that I’d make you proud
Proud of the man that I had turned into
Miss you, my heart’s still bruised
Where did you go? I’m still confused
Yeah, wish you could’ve seen what
Sometimes I wanna feel pain
Sometimes the hurt is important
Sometimes my heart feels whole
Sometimes the hole is enormous
Some mornings, I start to cry
Soon as I look at your portrait
I make a French press important
Sit back, try to enjoy it
And I just, uh, think about ya
Some days my heart still feels like you broke it and tore it
Like the rug’s pulled from under me
I don’t know where the floor it
Sometimes I try to ignore it
Somehow I’m not strong enough for it
I know I’d have to write this, knew it’d be hard to record it
Without breaking down in the moment
When I gave up sobriety after you passed
‘Cause it was harder on my own, hope you not mad at me for it
I’m not tryna place blame for what the relapse is over
But when I look in the clouds and see that you’re flying over
Worried that you’re upset with me and you wish I was sober
I’m finally being honest because it helps with the closure
For the most part, I’m good though
My guardian angel
But some days are hard and it gets hard to stay stable
I just want you to know that I’m doing fine
And deep down inside, I’m still the same baby you cradled, yeah
Yeah, deep down inside, I’m still the same baby you cradled, uh
My dear mamma
My sweet mamma
Nobody’s gonna hurt you
‘Cause Gerald’s always gonna love you
“Hi Gerald, I just though I’d call you to see how you’re doing. I’m sorry, [?] passings are never easy. And I had a long time with her, so I, you know I had my own fit of… sad feelings. Anyway, um, I just thought I’d call you to see if I could talk to you. But I will later, okay, so bye.”