Lyrics : Alex O'Connor
Music : Alex O'Connor
Yeah I don't know where to start
How do you admit that you're falling apart
I mean how will I admit that I'm falling apart
My mother's gonna worry but I'm fine in my heart
I've lived the words that I've said
And I live with a voice
That tends to tell me that I'm **** in my head
Well maybe I should **** it and be happy instead
I should just say **** it and be happy instead right right
Cus' there's a lot of people try to tell me how to deal with myself
But I'm not gonna listen if you mention my health
I don't care
Don't tell me and don't text me
'Cos that kind of **** upsets me just kind of affects me
It's bringing me down and I'm not gonna lie
These days I prefer to just not be outside
And these days I just end up spending all of my time
With my girlfriend but to be honest I think that's alright
'Cos time keeps rollin' and I'm just makin' songs
I'm doing my best
Still find myself stressed
And I'm no longer sure where I belong
I'm starting to rust
Don't know who to trust
Don't trust anyone not even me
Some people concentrate on style too much
But I think I just force myself to smile too much
And I should zoom in for the best
I wanna live my life with no stress
Love life and feel blessed like
It's kind of funny on the inside
I'm tryin' to be a man but really I'm just a little child ****
And that's pretty much it
Yeah that's pretty much it
Is there anything else
Oh yeah
My jaw hurts a lot because I grind it with stress mhm
I was an idiot recently and lost a lot of my friends naw
Nothing brings me joy and nothing makes me smile
Being at school makes me aware of how I haven't been myself in awhile oh
And I wonder what it was like to be 11
Wonder if there's such a thing as life after death
Such a thing as heaven why
Every now and then I think about the fact
That I'd become a legend if I died at 27