Lyrics : Jeff Sojka/NF
Music : Jeff Sojka/NF
Hello darkness my old friend
Knocking at my door again
Begging me to come outside
And let you back into my life
Now usually I’d be strong enough
To lock the doors and keep em shut
But not today I’m desperate
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in
OCD is worse than ever hands are bleeding maybe I should take the pills don’t
Know what’s going on with me somedays actually think I might be schizo-
Phrenic prolly not but even writing this is making me begin to spiral oh God
Made a promise to myself I wouldn’t let the fear back in but then I did though
Told the world that I was sick of running then went back to running what a joke
Disappointed yeah me too I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough guess not
It’s the same song and dance you’ve all seen it before
Darkness holds out his hand then we walk to the floor
Every decision made isn’t mine anymore
Like a puppet with strings I just don’t have a choice
What’s the truth what’s a lie helped me God help help me Lord
Face your fears dry you’re eyes grandma died
What’s the point
Lost the keys lost my hope lost my will lost my joy
Lost a friend lost my home lost my faith lost my voice
Standing back watching
My mansion
Burn to ash while I
Hold the gas can
Asking God if
He started this fire
Is this what you wanted
Is this what you wanted
Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life
Just to lay them to rest
Is this what you wanted
Is this what you wanted
Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is
Is this what you wanted
On the verge on the edge
Is this what you wanted
Petrified scared to death
Is this what you wanted
Praying to God desperate
Is this what you wanted
What you wanted
Is this what you wanted
Hanging on by a thread
Is this what you wanted
Empty heart nothing left
Is this what you wanted
Breaking down spiraling
Is this what you wanted
What you wanted
Is this what you wanted
Standing back watching
Is this what you wanted
My mansion
Is this what you wanted
Burn to ash while I
Is this what you wanted
What you wanted
Is this what you wanted
Hold the gas can
Is this what you wanted
Asking God if
Is this what you wanted
He started this fire
Is this what you wanted
What you wanted