Music : Joyner Lucas/Blackbear
Don't wanna go outside, I wanna go back to bed and let anxiety win
Don't wanna let you down, don't wanna let you win, I let anxiety win
All of my friends is too cold, they wanna hang out but I don't
Don't wanna be bothered, I know, but I hate being alone
Tell me what's happening with my soul, I try to get past it, but I won't
You think that I'm crazy, but who knows, I might be, maybe
Take a walk on my shoulders and you might see life in a way that you never seen it
If you feel like I do, then you might blink twice so you realize you were never dreaming
Only thing that I do is blame myself every time I feel defeated
But I know I got a million reasons, shit is getting kinda real this evening
I can't keep my head down, maybe I need to pray
Cause I ain't been sleeping days
I gotta get out of this evil place
Or maybe I need to stay
Stare at the mirror, the truth is I ain't my reflection cause all I can see is shade
Can somebody, anybody please relate, do you feel the same light?
I think my tension is building, my stress is a killer
My head that is filling, the pressure is filling
Expression and healing deflecting and still I'm expecting
I feel I'm connected, but really I'm stressing out
How you expect me to deal with these walls when they keep on closing in?
As soon as I think that I'm close to win, anxiety taking control again
Don't wanna go outside, I wanna go back to bed and let anxiety win
Don't wanna let you down, don't wanna let you in, I let anxiety win
I'm just out here try, trying to exist, I let anxiety win.
Don't wanna go outside, I wanna go back to bed and let anxiety win
Sometimes feeling depressed, sometimes I'm crying and that shit's weird
Sometimes feeling alive, sometimes I'm thinking I'm happier
**** it, I roll this blunt, somebody come bring me a pack of beer
This wind, I'm feeling ****ed up, so anytime my problems disappear
Who am I, who am I? Can't no one tell me nothing
Oh my God, oh my God, look at them got me buzzing
Just in time, just in time, ain't no one I can trust
And all of my fears are really assumptions, what am I scared of?
Really it's nothing, maybe I'm bugging, maybe I need to pray
Cause I am in sleeping days
I gotta get out of this evil place
Or maybe I need to stay
Stare at the mirror, the truth is I ain't my reflection, cause all I can see is shade
Can somebody, anybody please relate, do you feel the same light?
I think my tension is building, my stress is a killer
My head to the ceiling, the pressure is filling
Expression and healing, deflecting is killing
Expecting to feel I'm connected, but really I'm stressing out
How you expect me to deal with these walls when they keep on closing in?
As soon as I think that I'm close to win, anxiety's taking control again
Don't wanna go outside, I wanna go back to bed and let anxiety win
Don't wanna let you down, don't wanna let you in, I let anxiety win
I'm just out here try, trying to exist, I let anxiety win
Don't wanna go outside, I wanna go back to bed and let anxiety win