Music : Joyner Lucas/Amanda Ava Koci/Kathleen Regan
So I let the winds pile up but your words fall down
Said you didn't want me and I don't need you now
And I really wanna leave but I'm too far
And I'm too lost, wanna let go but it's too hard
Want a new start, gotta look inside me but I'm too scarred
Never knew the pain could be this sad
I don't wanna die young so I live fast
Never knew a heartbreak could be this bad
I'm afraid of being loved and I know why
I can never trust what I don't buy
When I feel like giving up then I don't try
Can I feel like taking drugs so I don't cry
Got me feeling like a dove when it don't fly
But I get depressed when you just leave
I can never get rest you close by
I don't feel at my best when it's just me
Every time I get bad then it get worse
When it get worse then you hit first
Got me living on the edge and I'm just cursed
Sick of trying to build a bridge just to get burned
Got me all on my head but I'm just hurt
Wanna run but we just hide
We don't wanna hear the truth so we just lie
But I only look at you like you're just mine
Said I only look at you like you're just mine (Just mine)
But we got a hill and my head's ****ed up, don't know how to feel
When you tell me you're in love with somebody else
How you tell me you're in love with somebody else
You know that I need you, now I gotta build a life with a stranger
We both know that I wanted it to be you, not them
So I let the winds pile up but your words fall down
Said you didn't want me and I don't need you now
We don't have to last forever
I thought that you would love me better
Why would you go tear me up just to take me down
Where the **** do I go when I'm too lost, when I'm too far
Wanna let it go but it's too hard, and it's too dark
Keep telling you I'm sad but it's two parts
Always saying things that you don't mean
I feel like I'm asleep but I don't dream
Just another nightmare but I don't scream
Every time it get rough then we break up
Every time that we **** then we make up
Every time we get drunk then it's dangerous
Took a time to give enough but you gave us
I don't wanna give it up but you made us
And I get depressed when you just leave
I can never get rest when I'm laid up
I don't feel at my best when it's just me
You can see my heart bleed when you watch it
I can feel your heart leave in the process
And you only want leave when it's options
But you only want me when it's toxic
How you only want me when it's toxic
Type of shit can get dangerous
Had to deal with my pain in phases
I done felt so much pain that I'm painless
And I know it's too late to save us, but we gotta heal
Got my head ****ed up, don't know how to feel
When you tell me you in love with somebody else
How you tell me you in love with somebody else
When you know that I need you
Now I gotta build a life with a stranger
We both know that I wanted it to be you
Someone let the winds pull up but your words fall down
Said you didn't want me and I don't need you now (Don't need you now)
We don't have to love forever
I thought that you would love me better
Why would you go tear me up just to take me down (Take me down)
Someone let the winds pull up but your words fall down
Said you didn't want me and I don't need you now (Don't need you now)
We don't have to love forever
To something you would love me so much better
Why would you go tear me up just to take me down