Violence is gradually germinating in my mind
Hardcore pornography as a fetus in the womb
Added with my mental illness to become that kind of man
Every second I approach the state of an atom bomb
This is the bloodlust
That takes me away
Away from my humanity
Too close to perversion
By smearing my dignity
Exposing me to retributions
I stay in the momentum of my actions
Without giving me a chance to change myself
It’s too late to become someone I’m not
I can only face my reflection into the mirror
Accepting to unveil my face
In front of all these people
I didn’t think I would be seeing myself like this
My addiction to murders and rapes led me to derision
But I will always remember the feelings I felt
Without ever feeling guilty
Without empathy
I stay in the momentum of my actions
Without giving me a chance to change myself
It’s too late to become someone I’m not
I can only face my reflection into the mirror
Accepting to unveil my face
In front of all these people
This is the bloodlust
That takes me away
Away from my humanity
Too close to perversion
By smearing my dignity
Exposing me to retributions
I can’t feel sorry for anybody now
What I’ve done is done
There is no turning back
But there are always all my memories
To annihilate me
And to excite me
I rewind and then feel the true pleasure
The liberation of adrenaline
While I free them from their lives
Notice that I am a man
And not a beast
I have chosen another path
The path that drives me right to decay and sin
Sins that I won’t even clean
The faces of these young girls
Seems to be alive in my head
But they are just memories
The screams of fear and despair
Coming out of their mouths
They shout, so loud
This can’t be real
I hope