Decades of isolation
Trapped in a body and mind overtaken
By all the shit
I thought I’d outgrow
All of the moments that have stained my soul
The moments where I find
Texture and definition
Memories I spent, every day hiding in
Where do I start?
Where do I end?
The line that I blur
No longer exists
The prodded pendulum swings without intent
Anger turned inward
Finds ways to survive
Psychosis avoided through averted eyes
I do not see, so I am blind
I do not feel, so I am fine
Joy and peace are wasted on me (wasted on me)
I shake when I’m awake
And I shiver in my sleep
The floor is never too far to fall on
Hell and my head have a lot in common
Blood runs cold with fear
No one will mourn you here
My mind is a loaded gun
And all of its damage can’t be undone
Where do I start, where do I end?
If this is the entrance, where is the exit?
Sniveling little fuck up
Nothing is ever my fault
Protect my weakness, no matter the cost
Look at me motherfucker
Feel me underneath
Notice me in every nerve
Giving everyone less than they deserve
A dormant madness with meat in its teeth
A swallowed tongue gives way to relief
Joy and peace are wasted on me (wasted on me)
I shake when I’m awake
And I shiver in my sleep
The floor is never too far to fall on
Hell and my head have a lot in common
Blood runs cold with fear
No one will mourn you here
No one will mourn you here