Only through suffering can greatness be achieved
I’m a child of contradictions. My existence is paradoxal
I was not created for my path, I chose it.
Lusting for progress, climbing the ladders,
and here I am, on the top of the world thrown the ladders away
Against standards, against norms
preaching chaos every single moment
releasing those who heed the call
let my will be done
the basic principle, the reason
of this causal limited universe
the flame inside is burning and hurting
forcing to wander, seeking salvation
standing in the light of the divine glory
is my creator, grasping my hand
altruistic contingent limited love
my spiritual shield, giver of peace
no
lies
for the love of god
is just a chain
around my mind
and there I was, in free fall
crumbled foundations
left just pieces of shattered spirit
deeper to the dungeons without course
keeping up the act
losing all I beliveved in
losing all
crawling in twilight, knowing I’m wrong
can’t see my way out of this misery
hear my cries in the unlight
as my lifeforce is spent! My death!
My death!
not by mercy, by sheer force of will I shall recreate myself
Without gods, without help. My inner sacred flame is undying.
my second birth
I am again
The moment
of my death in christ
was the darkest nightmare
to experience
but also
the origin of my greatness.
painful birth
liberation
enlightment
but alone
watching and wondering like a child
given new vision, power to comprehend
feeling the gaps in the net of reality
duality overtaking oneness
XEPER
unveiled eyes, tears of joy
by the smallest of blessings
reshaping reality, ignoring laws
the first step, my genesis