Lately,I feel so alone
Don't even know why I have a phone
Nobody hits me up and I'm stuck, never had someone
that I could call my-own
It's lonely walking down this road
Fake friends that I didn't have to know
The same ones that ****ed me over and whenever I
need 'em and I turn around they just turn-ghost
I feel I'm at an all-time low
I am depressed and it hurts me to know
My ex is happy and I can't seem to cope
She's ignoring every text message I wrote
My anxiety's high, my medication's low
I am so stressed and I hate being home
I sit and overthink everything alone
I wish I had somebody to hold,damn
I'm sick and tired of putting up a front
Like I'm happy, but really I am in a slump
I try to stay strong, screaming, "I don't give a ****!"
But if anybody would give it,then I'm the one
I wanna put down my walls and open up
I hide behind this rapper I've become
Addicted to bein' accepted's like a drug
No one's here, I feel like I'm ready to plunge
I remember you said my music was wack
Teachers persuading me to try to give up my act
They said the image and the drive is what I lack
Made me think maybe l could never be a part of rap
Well, I ignored that, I said, "**** it and snapped
Over twenty million plays, where are my haters at?
I didn't need a label to give me a chance
The day I sell out an arena I'll feel like I'm the man
Buzzin' hard,but to find nothing
Never found someone who really loves me
People comin' around now cause I'm gettin' money
A few plays later, now they all see something
The same guy that is from the start
The same guy my ex left with a broken heart
The same guy who turned music into his art
The same seven-year-old who dreamt of bein' a star
I'm twenty-two, and I won't let myself down
I stood up right after I fell down
It's hard to see Heaven when you know you're
Hell-bound
I never really opened up and that's until now
I hope that I never lose you
If I could choose one person, I would choose you
I hope you understand my pain
'Cause that's something that we all gotta go-through
I hate being down this road
Been down before
I feel like I need you more
I'm so alone
Since I was seven years old
My future's all I'd imagine
And now I'm here and I look back, I'm screamin;
"Damn it"
This the life, I never planned it
No,I never planned it